Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Medication Troubles

I had to go to a doctor to get my medication adjusted. I went in knowing I had a problem with anxiety, and I came out with a diagnosis of bipolar disorder. I didn't believe him, but I took the medication anyway. He put me on a mood stabilizer and an anti-depressant. I feel awful. I'm unhappy, unmotivated, and uninterested in anything. I've been nauseous lately. The smell of salmon today made me gag. It's an awful existence. I need to find another doctor. I have a terrible time making appointments, though, so I keep putting it off. My lack of motivation doesn't help.

On a good note, *B* got a transfer approval. He'll be working much closer to home and much more normal hours. I'm really hoping that this change will improve our time together. Lately we've been somewhat distant. Or rather, I've been distant and he's been supportive. I hate acting that way, but I can't help it. I really can't. :o(

4 comments:

  1. Hope you get feeling better. I hope you can find a doctor you like. It makes all the difference.

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  2. A good Dr is very important. Find a really good psycologist too....

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  3. I have a good psychologist, thankfully. It's the guy that can prescribe medicine that is difficult. I'm ready to chuck all the medicine and see what I can do with CBT alone.

    Thanks for the encouragement, I really appreciate it.

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  4. Good I am glad, a good psycologist makes a big difference. My husband has a lot of the save troubles and he did really well with CBT and no meds. Good luck **hugs**

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